"No one is responsible for my death. I don't feel like living on this earth."
This is what a 10 year old girl wrote on a piece of paper before committing suicide and left forever. She had written this in Kannada, so translated into English.
A 10 year old girl committed suicide. No rape, no eve teasing, no beating, no quarrel, nothing. I was shocked and didn't know what to make of it when I saw this news on TV. I mean a 10 year old girl committing suicide, its just too difficult to take that for any person. To some extent you can understand if an adult commits suicide, but a 10 year old, the mind just goes blank. Suddenly my mind was filled with questions....Why did she..? What made her to act like that...? What was she thinking...? What was going through her mind just seconds before she committed suicide...? What would the other students in her class would be thinking...? How was their reaction...? How the mother would feel...?
So many questions, but none to answer that. May be she preferred silence, may be she was lonely, may be she didn't find any reason to live, may be she didn't understood what death is, its all may be but nothing concrete. An innocent girl who is yet to see this world, yet to experience it and yet to enjoy it.....is gone. I just feel that wish I could have gone there just seconds before she took that drastic step to hell or heaven may be, I don't know. Just doesn't know who is to be blamed...God, Society, Nature, don't know whom...?
I was trying to know if there exists any link that could have lead her to commit suicide. Sometimes, the link may not exist or even if it exists it may not be known. I know, none other than the girl, is the only person who has answers to all these questions. May be there are some things in life which end with a question mark and not with a full stop. May be she might have thought, "Death is Happier and Satisfying than Life"