"No one is responsible for my death. I don't feel like living on this earth."
This is what a 10 year old girl wrote on a piece of paper before committing suicide and left forever. She had written this in Kannada, so translated into English.
A 10 year old girl committed suicide. No rape, no eve teasing, no beating, no quarrel, nothing. I was shocked and didn't know what to make of it when I saw this news on TV. I mean a 10 year old girl committing suicide, its just too difficult to take that for any person. To some extent you can understand if an adult commits suicide, but a 10 year old, the mind just goes blank. Suddenly my mind was filled with questions....Why did she..? What made her to act like that...? What was she thinking...? What was going through her mind just seconds before she committed suicide...? What would the other students in her class would be thinking...? How was their reaction...? How the mother would feel...?
So many questions, but none to answer that. May be she preferred silence, may be she was lonely, may be she didn't find any reason to live, may be she didn't understood what death is, its all may be but nothing concrete. An innocent girl who is yet to see this world, yet to experience it and yet to enjoy it.....is gone. I just feel that wish I could have gone there just seconds before she took that drastic step to hell or heaven may be, I don't know. Just doesn't know who is to be blamed...God, Society, Nature, don't know whom...?
I was trying to know if there exists any link that could have lead her to commit suicide. Sometimes, the link may not exist or even if it exists it may not be known. I know, none other than the girl, is the only person who has answers to all these questions. May be there are some things in life which end with a question mark and not with a full stop. May be she might have thought, "Death is Happier and Satisfying than Life"
Keep Smiling,
Prashanth.
Keep Smiling,
Prashanth.
Time's changing...
ReplyDeleteThere was a time when we knew certain things only when we crossed 20-25...
Bust these days kids are developing fast emotionally and mentally...
So like adolescents what we felt ...regarding life..regarding anything...she mustav reached that stage pretty early...
then parents...The world where parents are busy with their work...their parties...some kids grow up amidst that some lose it...that's it...
in short modernity without the values has made a mess of it...
I so agree with what you said. Yes these days things have changed a lot and worst part is that it has changed for bad and not for good. Thanks for visiting my blog and commenting on it, appreciate it...:)
DeleteA passing thought, and a very vague one, may be she hit puberty?
ReplyDeleteI know it sounds quite odd, but that's what I thought. These days, stress is way too larger than the life itself. Perhaps, that's what made her feel death leads to a better place.
That's an interesting point Chintan, may it is the reason. If this was the reason, wish she would have asked someone before taking that last step. Stress is slowly increasing these days and is having a bad effect on all of us. Those who can handle its fine, but those who cannot have no way to go.....
DeleteI am too shocked to respond to this. I cannot comprehend what caused her to take this step!
ReplyDeleteThis was my reaction when I first saw this on TV, just too shocked to think about it.
DeleteNo reasons given out yet? I am scared for the family.. this guilt they have to live with, along with the loss!! You have a link for this?
DeleteThis news came on TV9 Kannada News channel briefly. Didn't see this news coming in Newspaper also. I searched for this on youtube and on net, but didn't get any info. If I do get it, will surely share it. I am also curious to know. Appreciate your concern.
DeleteShocking !
ReplyDeleteYes it is...
DeletePeer pressure? Insults? Sexual torture? I am stunned. Can a 10 year old understand the concept of death. They do not even know what life is.. Beats me..
ReplyDeleteJust too difficult to explain.
DeletePrash, i know of a girl ( my then classmate) who committed suicide at 12 years when she overheard her mom and uncle talking closely. They were not having an affair, but she was conditioned to thinking what her father voiced out loud most times at home. She attempted to hang herself first, was too short - then she drank acid.
ReplyDeleteYes, she drank cleaning acid and died shortly. It used to rattle me for days, especially because we were quite close at that time.
That's sad, I mean they are yet to mature to understand Life but don't know how do they come to know about death. Sorry to hear that Archana. Just don't know what to say.
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